I lost both my parents within 8 months of each other (13 years ago). And the one thing I remember feeling, amidst the shock, and grief, was the sense of aloneness, I felt like an orphan....weird, I'm a grown woman and felt like a kid all alone in this world. Still do actually. I guess because I'm single and don't have kids, my parents were the two people in this world that I felt, if anything happened to me, I could always go to them, they'd be the ones who'd remember me, who'd notice if I wasn't here, etc. When they passed away, I felt completely alone in the world. I felt a deep sense of fear inside that no matter what happesn in my life, I'm all alone now, no one to share my milestones with, no one to go to for advice when i need it, etc. Neither of my parents suffered a long illness, both their deaths were fairly sudden....so I didn't really have the time to prepare myself mentally for the end or for the loss. I thought in time things would get better and I'd miss them less and less but the reality is, now 13 years later I still feel completely alone in this world and still feel the emptiness inside. people told me time would heal, I thought it would also, but in all honesty, for me it hasn't. I wake up everyday wishing I won't feel alone and empty in my life today, but it hasn't happened yet.